So hey! I am still alive. Still in Costa Rica, too, although that will change on Sunday at about 2:45 pm. Gulp. I'm currently making the most of my last few days in the country by lying around, reading YA books from the school collection (read all the adult ones already), and generally being a transition-anxiety-ridden lump. It's fun! It's curiously similar to the way I felt right before coming here. To be honest I am quite depressed about leaving and not at all sure it's the right thing to do, but I feel like at least at the moment, neither English teaching or tourism jobs are the thing for me and that it's time to have a job I enjoy again.
So how do I plan on spending my first few months in the states? Why, waiting tables in Nowhere, Missouri, of course! What could be more enjoyable?
I'm also spending a lot of time these days looking at postings for library assistant jobs, all of which seem to be in Nowhere, Iowa or something of the sort. I actually went to the trouble of drafting a cover letter for a miraculously well-paid youth services assistant opening at a library in Ithaca, New York, which is actually supposed to be a cool town, being a college town and all, only to look at the county webpage and see that only residents within a 6 county radius are eligible to apply. Well. Fine, then.
There's also my upcoming vacation to Guatemala and Oaxaca to think about, but that really just adds to my worries as a result of not having planned anything. I have a very complicated relationship with planning. I honestly believe it's best not to plan much and stay flexible in traveling, and every time I plan something in my own life I start getting stressed about being Tied Down. Nonetheless, I always get very nervous when I don't know what's coming next. I am hoping someday to find a balance between being impulsive (HEY WHY DON'T I MOVE TO A FOREIGN COUNTRY? HEY WHY DON'T I QUIT MY JOB?) and being totally uncomfortable with uncertainty.
So um, this is kind of negative because I am in kind of a mood right now, so here are some things I'm looking forward to:
getting my fingernails painted tomorrow to match my beautiful toes
seeing my Guatemalan friends
delicious Mexican food
my high school friend's wedding on August 9
getting my computer fixed (although it's been behaving surprisingly well, for it, the last few days)
seeing Bob Dylan (from row 8!!!) with C, September 24 (not sure about that date)
seeing other friends and family
reintroducing myself to clothing I haven't seen in 7 months (will be 8)
Ok, every time I try to post this my computer decides it doesn’t have a wireless card so better just do this as long as it’s working.